i've learnt..

1) you can't always be so sour towards others.. you have to be more positive
2) karma f-ng exists...
3) its most important to be yourself always...

i love you..

say we're together baby, say we're together.. woah..

i need you..

i need you forever baby, you and me...

Love. A funny affair.

I guess sometimes i make things into a self fulfilling prophesy. I should probably stop assuming things are gonna happen a certain way.

Its better to focus on the happy things in life.

i swear.. doing project with these people is really going to kill me soon.

High blood pressure. Aneurysm. Whole lot of stress related illnesses.

Why do i need to keep asking you to send me stuff. If you're done with them, just send it to me. What's the point in holding on to them? As if they were made of gold. Why do you ALWAYS wait?

I might just lose it one day and bitch slap you so hard that your teeth all fall out.

I'm that pissed.

bring smiles to your face..

just like you bring them to mine.

wei yi. =)

i had the time of my life this weekend.

in more ways than one...

being with friends even though i wasn't able to give them much attention, for which i am very guilty =(

being with my family and being kids all over again...

that phone call, the final piece in the jigsaw, which just made the whole weekend complete.

kinda funny how i'm happy being hit in the gut..

aishiteru.. hontou..

can you wait for me?

wait for me to grow..
trust that i'll become the man that you need..
when the day comes that you can finally accept me..

until then..

will you wait for me please?

"if time heals all wounds...

i just stopped time...

cos i ain't exactly healing."

-WL 2006

The bear bouquet,

The earrings i haven't found,

What else?

i cried again..

i have a weak resolve...

my mind says its not, my heart hopes it is...

i say its ok if its not me but i know i'm lying...

at the end of the day...

i still love you so much.

Hitlist:

蒲公英的约定
安静
说好的幸福呢

Essentially a whole lot of jay chou's songs. =)
Can't wait to start playing.

as you grow older, you start to appreciate many many things. Things i used to take for granted, now i cherish deeply.

Today's impromptu supper with the big brother and cousin at highlander was awesome. Fantastic music and laid back atmosphere. Perfect for chilling out and catching up. Nevermind the fact that we were only there for a couple of hours.

Yet at the corner of my mind, i wondered what it'd be like holding your hand there. =) No i ain't emo.

i've given up on many things..

learning to play a guitar,
asking people to tag me on my blog (except you janine),
having a GPA of 3.8++,
being with the "in" crowd,
dress cool,
being the centre of the world,

but there are certain things that will never go away..

learning the piano (keyboard same thing luh),
learning to drive,
staying fit with sports,
qualifying for university,
making it to OCS,
makings loads of money in future,
making my family happy,
making my friends happy,
being cute :P





loving you..

some things just won't change, no matter how much time goes by.

真的 我没事

On and on, the pain goes on
And it wouldn't just wouldn't die
我竟远比想像中软弱旦无能为力
对你的眼神选择了逃避恨自己恨自己

On and on, the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more
就让我被悔不当初的罪恶吞去
惩罚过后能否带来解脱I'll be fine I'll be fine

So many cried, listening to God
让坚强不只是种伪装
So many lies, listening to you
天亮后I will be fine

On and on, the pain goes on
and I just don't know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能够不再空虚
最后心念别放弃I will be fine I will be fine

So many cried, listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you
什么时候I will be fine

当我再也不对任何事期待只剩下你只剩下你
有天当我舍弃一切见你请你要微笑不语

So many cried, listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you
什么时候I will be fine

Hey heart,

Well, i guess i ought to apologise. I opened you up again to let you get hurt. We really did love her yea? Just that we didn't do things we needed to do and did things we didn't need to do. We have me to blame for that.

Someday it'll be better. Maybe there is still hope. Or not.

Sorry. That's all i can say now.

No one really understands...

No one sees past the mask...

No one knows of the conflicting issues inside...

No one says the things i need to hear...

Least of all... you.

I just wanna be selfish this once,
Just have my way once more,
to feel spoiled, loved, cherished.
To know that i don't have to grip that rope so tightly all the time.

Someone save me. I'm drowning.

haha time to keep things hush hush. =p

alot of silent readers ah. TAG OR DIE!

And when i dried my eyes, i realised,
that loving you shouldn't have to be a painful thing.

That if i wanted every single thing i've promised,
to actually mean what they were.

I'd have to stand strong.

I'll never stop loving you even if you don't love me too.
Because to me, loving isn't about obtaining.

You love because you do.

And i'm happy that i love you.
And i'm happy that at least you loved me too.
And i believe that there'll be a day when you could love me again out there.
I love you babe. <3

*And my blog has a follower! Aiseh man... shoutout to janine.. woots*

兰亭临帖 行书如行云流水
月下门推 心细如你脚步碎
忙不迭 千年碑易拓却难拓你的美
珍奇缺页真心能给谁

牧笛横吹 黄酒小菜有几碟
夕阳余晖 如你的羞怯似醉
摹本已写 而墨香不褪淤泥都有余味
一杆朱砂 到底揭了谁

无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解

无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解
无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生了解

弹指岁月 情唱情歌情湮没
情诗半解 回眸一笑你婉约
恨了没 你摇铜镜叹 谁让你蹙秀眉
而生回忆 徒留胭脂味

廊雁南飞 转身一别衣溅泪
菊已八月 收揽回忆怎么睡
又怎么会 兴是蜜蜂嗅 花谁阵阵眼对
若花怨蝶 你会怨着谁

无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解

无花风月 我啼血等一回
手书无愧 无惧人间是非
雨的娇靥 又潇潇了几夜
我等着泪 来提醒你爱谁

Policeman said son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for
If it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

feels like sh*t...
not being able to do anything

should i even be doing anything?
do you still miss me like you used to? When you would call me just to talk to me...

I may smile, i may laugh
but i haven't been happy recently.
Only when i look upon your eyes,
do i actually feel something.

I'm really messed up without you

A lifetime of wandering ,always wishing for a place to anchor
You were the first that i really fell in love
within the midst of the tempest you became my harbour
A reason for me to be happy
Now you've shut me out without giving me a reason
I know that you've felt something before
All i do now is wait to see if you'll be my harbour again
I want you to be my love again

" I can be your hero baby i really want you in my life again
I can kiss away the pain just wondering what i can do
I will stand by you forever to make you feel the same
you can take my breath away" i want you back babe

with this i shall grow up, no more selfish childish antics
no more being a kid, be the man that you wanted and needed

We were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine

Now you wanna be free
so i'm letting you fly
cos i know in my heart babe
our love will never die no...

You'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
oo darling cos you'll always be my baby

and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
oo darling cos you'll always be my baby

i ain't gonna cry no..
i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave girl
i will not stand in your way

but inevitably
you'll be back again
cos you know in your heart babe
our love will never end no..

You'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
oo darling cos you'll always be my baby

and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
oo darling cos you'll always be my baby

i know that you'll be back girl
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder
i know that you'll be right back oh
baby believe me it's only a matter of time

you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
girl don't you know you can't escape me
oo darling cos you'll always be my baby

and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
oo darling cos you'll always be my baby

if you remember our song
that day you said to me "always be my babe"
and i will be
just like you'll always be my baby

你说我让你看不清楚
你说你害怕在爱中迷途
舍不得你哭如果是我让你觉得无助
让我告诉你我对这一切有多在乎

如何证明我深情的吻
才能呵护你脆弱的灵魂
我愿用生命阻挡任何能伤害你的人
就算被冷落就算犯错我都不走

喔~相信我无悔无求我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪至少我尽力而为
喔~相信我别再闪躲我愿陪你直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪至少我尽力而为
相信我

如何证明我深情的吻
才能呵护你脆弱的灵魂
我愿用生命阻挡任何能伤害你的人
就算被冷落就算犯错我都不走

喔~相信我无悔无求我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪至少我尽力而为
喔~相信我别再闪躲我愿陪你直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪至少我尽力而为
相信我

喔~相信我无悔无求我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪至少我尽力而为
喔~相信我别再闪躲我愿陪你直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪至少我尽力而为
相信我

真心无奈
多心都为了爱
我坐在这
傻傻的发呆
我仍依赖
你纯纯的爱

我心还在
爱你的人还在
苦苦等
想哭哭不出来
无心伤害
你应该明白

爱太多空隙受伤容易
互信互爱才是唯一
对你的付出都放在心里
我始终这样珍惜我怎么会忘记

feel so sorry, baby i'm so sorry
i never meant, i never meant to hurt you
无心伤害
你应该明白

feel so lonely, baby i'm so lonely
do you know, i need you to come back
are you alright, 请快点回来

真心仍在
与你永不分开
这一生
只愿和你相爱
与你同在
只为你等待

爱是纯真爱是无恨
不在乎怎么会痛苦万分
我真的太笨不懂心疼
baby please come back

feel so sorry, baby i'm so sorry
i never meant, i never meant to hurt you
无心伤害
你应该明白

feel so lonely, baby i'm so lonely
do you know, i need you to come back
are you alright, 请快点回来 (i miss you tonight)

that dream that seemed so real.

i swear i never wanted to wake up.

wl is just dumb..

"..我愿意付出一切交换
我灵魂的另一半.."

-世界唯一的你, 曹格

"lelio~ lelio~ko
只是想起你天真的臉龐
lelio~ lelio~ko
只是想見你專注的眼光
可惜身邊找不到你肩膀
可惜你不在身旁
lelio~你卻壓在我心上"

Missing you in the dead of the night..



*whispers*
"i love you"

Sometimes it's too dark to even fathom reaching the end of that road.

But finding someone makes that road so much easier to walk.

Let me know what you think of the photos =)

Being up at this time and not feel the least bit tired..

you really do wonders..

TAG!!! SILENT READERS!!!

you get 50 points if you hit someone while doing your circuit test...

There are five things in life which make me happy

1) Eating
2) Sleeping
3) Family
4) Friends
5) You

The few things which keep me sane night after night.

你的愛很像泡沫
太輕或太重 都不在手中
我的愛就像天空
太放或太收 你都只是風
你來過卻愛上自由 你出走我不問理由

我會好好過 等你再愛我
總有個角落 會讓你想起我
我會好好過 等你再愛我
向右或向左
都有我站在這裡守候

你留下很多 夠我面對寂寞
寂寞不重 縱使愛太弱
我會好好過 等妳回頭
會看到的一定是我

一人一半，感情不散。
一人一素故，感情才会久

时光累积，安静的泪滴。
一心去追， 爱那么可贵。
这样的人， 这样地等， 无非是等个回忆眼神。
为爱翻滚，不计伤痕，甘心为你一生都浮沉。
这样的人，别笑我蠢，傻傻的心痛也不觉疼。
就算天冷，就算残忍，等你想起这没用的人。

已经找到爱， 为何要离开。

The awesomest singer! I'm lazy to search for lyrics everytime i listen to his songs. So up here they'll go.

Jam Hsiao Lyrics:

疼愛

我沉默 不代表我不痛
我不痛 眼淚就不會流
總是安靜承受 安靜忍受 安靜看你走

你說我 很適合當朋友
你說我 總是會聽你說
你說別太難過 保持聯絡 有空的時候

把疼愛都給你 把疼痛都給我
最痛是當時微笑送你走
等到你轉身後 眼淚也不敢流
只怕你偶然還會回過頭

把疼愛都給你 把疼痛都給我
放開手是我最後的溫柔
如果你能飛的快樂自由 這疼痛 並不算 甚麼

想挽留 卻為什麼點頭
我不懂 連我都不懂
我如果說得太傷 愛的太多
有誰能夠懂

把疼愛都給你 把疼痛都給我
最痛是當時微笑送你走
等到你轉身後 眼淚也不敢流
只怕你偶然還會回過頭

把疼愛都給你 把疼痛都給我
放開手是我最後的溫柔
如果你能飛的快樂自由 這疼痛 並不算 甚麼

千言萬語湧進我的宇宙
讓我整個殞落
有多少愛就有多少 沉默的疼痛

把疼愛都給你 把疼痛都給我
最痛是當時微笑送你走
等到你轉身後 眼淚也不敢流
只怕你偶然還會回過頭

把疼愛都給你 把疼痛都給我
放開手是我最後的溫柔
如果你能飛的快樂自由 這疼痛 並不算 甚麼

活着

是誰讓冰冷的世界突然　變得火熱
是誰讓我感覺我不是　　孤單一個
是誰讓所有簡單的心情　失而復得
是誰讓煩腦挫折不再那麼　苦澀
太多的虛偽　在我們面前　無所謂

為你唱首歌　生命嘶吼著　
摧毀多餘的　對錯的規則
這世界太扯　那些悲傷的　
該停了

為你唱首歌　慶祝我們活著　
這是快樂的　值得感動的
你我的心跳　都該被附和　
被記得

是誰把每個平淡日子都變得深刻
是誰把我的天空塗上燦爛顏色
太多的虛偽　在我們面前　無所謂
為你唱首歌　為生命嘶吼著　
摧毀多餘的　對錯的規則
這世界太扯　那些悲傷的　
該停了

為你唱首歌　慶祝我們活著　
這是快樂的　值得感動的
你我的心跳　都該被附和　
被記得

Sometimes we do stuff that we know is futile, yet we can't stop ourselves from doing so anyway.

Like how we worry about grades, after the exams are taken.

Like how we console others telling them its ok, when you know they are hurting.

Like how we tell ourselves to not make the same mistakes, only to find ourselves in the same situation again.

I guess its just part of life. Of human nature. We have the need to do or say something so as not to make try to make things better, to make it seem less painful. Even when we know its pointless.

All that's important to me now, is that there's only one person inside my heart. The one who i truly love.

You.

Wei Lun's attempt to document life's rules

1) Don't let chance decide your life. Take decisions into your own hand regardless of how hard it is to decide (Kelvin)

2) Love is a choice. You choose to either love or not to love.

3) Family is the most important - from blood relations to sworn relations.

More to come...

Communication...

Its really important...

Aiya... this stupid blog becoming emo again...

I feel like a deer in front of a truck.

I still have no idea what happened....

But it hurts like hell....

I hate being emo....

All i want is you to lean next to me.

Where we'll watch stars all night long.

If i say i love you, would you say you love me?

Really i think i've reached one of the lowest point of my life.

It's so hard just holding on.

The distinction is starting to blur....

Is it physical pain or an emotional one?

The only thing that's similar is that it both hurts really badly, like taking a knife to the chest.

Perhaps i'm that un-lovable.

All i want is someone to hold onto at the end of the day...

To just sit there together enjoying each other's presence.

Maybe that's a silly reason to want to be with you...

But i just love in that way.

~Emoboy =(

爱了太深, 让人伤得越深

You keep lying to yourself, that you'll be fine even if things don't work out.

Truth is, you can't really bear to see her gone.

ARghhh.... i hate this feeling.

Two special ladies in my life who i know will never fail to be there no matter how low things may be.


Here's to family! Cheers!

I just realised i've not met up with you (yes you janine) ever since JC, which is like close to two years. So yea. Here's how i look like now. *gasps*

Chubby i know.

Maybe if i laugh all the time,

nobody will see my sad eyes.

This will be a very lengthy post about a certain project and certain people. No names here. Though its kinda bloody obvious.

What i don't get is your nonchalence towards the subject. Surely you can't be ignorant of everything that has happened.

Do you not know that we have a DEADLINE? That we are extremely behind in our schedule? That we have information unsubstantiated which will come back to haunt us when we're being audited?

Sure you don't. That's why every weekend you're off partying and enjoying, no news from you until monday. While I get to spend my weekends cooped up in front of the computer. Fantastic. You even get to spend the past few weeks focusing on a totally different project just because you think there's someone covering this project for you.

Time allocated aside, there's quality of work to be mentioned. How much time have you taken just to prepare a simple piece of document? I understand that its good to have fun while you're doing your work, but ultimately we're doing a project which has deadlines to meet. What's the point of spending weeks creating funny sounding names for your staff? Worse, when you return me your work, its not even complete.

How many times have you actually tried to figure anything out? How many times have you actually spent time sitting at the computer and trying to figure out why it doesn't balance? Why it doesn't work? All you've done so far is look at the screen for that half of a second before turning to me and say: "i dunno"

Do you really not feel any sense of guilt when you're not doing anything for the project?

To be fair. I know i'm a demanding leader. I know i can be dictatorial in my ways. But really, if you were able to give me that sense of assurance on your competency, i would love to sit back and let you share some of the burden. But the work i see from you is riddled with careless mistakes which are time consuming to correct.

Maybe you're taking advantage of my personality of perfectionism to avoid work, maybe you're not. At this point it matters not anymore.

At this point, my words fail me. Continuing with this tirade will probably make me snap and go crazy.

Its all very disappointing. Thinking back, when you exclaimed that you wanted to be together with me in a group for this project. I had foolishly thought you wanted so because we were good friends.

In the words of a good friend of mine, "tio bait"

I guess my biggest disappointment was that day, before all this even began. When i told you i couldn't go through this alone and i needed your help. You gave me a smile and said,




"of course"

Alright i've decided to give the blogging thing another go. With so many things on my mind, i guess i could probably come out with pretty much lotsa things to consistently keep this blog active.

So yea.

Here we go.