i cried again..

i have a weak resolve...

my mind says its not, my heart hopes it is...

i say its ok if its not me but i know i'm lying...

at the end of the day...

i still love you so much.

Hitlist:

蒲公英的约定
安静
说好的幸福呢

Essentially a whole lot of jay chou's songs. =)
Can't wait to start playing.

as you grow older, you start to appreciate many many things. Things i used to take for granted, now i cherish deeply.

Today's impromptu supper with the big brother and cousin at highlander was awesome. Fantastic music and laid back atmosphere. Perfect for chilling out and catching up. Nevermind the fact that we were only there for a couple of hours.

Yet at the corner of my mind, i wondered what it'd be like holding your hand there. =) No i ain't emo.

i've given up on many things..

learning to play a guitar,
asking people to tag me on my blog (except you janine),
having a GPA of 3.8++,
being with the "in" crowd,
dress cool,
being the centre of the world,

but there are certain things that will never go away..

learning the piano (keyboard same thing luh),
learning to drive,
staying fit with sports,
qualifying for university,
making it to OCS,
makings loads of money in future,
making my family happy,
making my friends happy,
being cute :P





loving you..

some things just won't change, no matter how much time goes by.

真的 我没事

On and on, the pain goes on
And it wouldn't just wouldn't die
我竟远比想像中软弱旦无能为力
对你的眼神选择了逃避恨自己恨自己

On and on, the pain lives on
It's hurting so much more
就让我被悔不当初的罪恶吞去
惩罚过后能否带来解脱I'll be fine I'll be fine

So many cried, listening to God
让坚强不只是种伪装
So many lies, listening to you
天亮后I will be fine

On and on, the pain goes on
and I just don't know how to cope
伸手抱住自己是否就能够不再空虚
最后心念别放弃I will be fine I will be fine

So many cried, listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you
什么时候I will be fine

当我再也不对任何事期待只剩下你只剩下你
有天当我舍弃一切见你请你要微笑不语

So many cried, listening to you
希望你能再给我力量
So many lies, listening to you
什么时候I will be fine

Hey heart,

Well, i guess i ought to apologise. I opened you up again to let you get hurt. We really did love her yea? Just that we didn't do things we needed to do and did things we didn't need to do. We have me to blame for that.

Someday it'll be better. Maybe there is still hope. Or not.

Sorry. That's all i can say now.

No one really understands...

No one sees past the mask...

No one knows of the conflicting issues inside...

No one says the things i need to hear...

Least of all... you.

I just wanna be selfish this once,
Just have my way once more,
to feel spoiled, loved, cherished.
To know that i don't have to grip that rope so tightly all the time.

Someone save me. I'm drowning.

haha time to keep things hush hush. =p

alot of silent readers ah. TAG OR DIE!

And when i dried my eyes, i realised,
that loving you shouldn't have to be a painful thing.

That if i wanted every single thing i've promised,
to actually mean what they were.

I'd have to stand strong.

I'll never stop loving you even if you don't love me too.
Because to me, loving isn't about obtaining.

You love because you do.

And i'm happy that i love you.
And i'm happy that at least you loved me too.
And i believe that there'll be a day when you could love me again out there.
I love you babe. <3

*And my blog has a follower! Aiseh man... shoutout to janine.. woots*

兰亭临帖 行书如行云流水
月下门推 心细如你脚步碎
忙不迭 千年碑易拓却难拓你的美
珍奇缺页真心能给谁

牧笛横吹 黄酒小菜有几碟
夕阳余晖 如你的羞怯似醉
摹本已写 而墨香不褪淤泥都有余味
一杆朱砂 到底揭了谁

无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解

无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解
无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生了解

弹指岁月 情唱情歌情湮没
情诗半解 回眸一笑你婉约
恨了没 你摇铜镜叹 谁让你蹙秀眉
而生回忆 徒留胭脂味

廊雁南飞 转身一别衣溅泪
菊已八月 收揽回忆怎么睡
又怎么会 兴是蜜蜂嗅 花谁阵阵眼对
若花怨蝶 你会怨着谁

无花风月 我啼血等一回
宣笔一撅 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解

无花风月 我啼血等一回
手书无愧 无惧人间是非
雨的娇靥 又潇潇了几夜
我等着泪 来提醒你爱谁

Policeman said son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for
If it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像气氛纯白的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
一开始都不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

你不懂了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢